I realize that my blog is getting so emotional it might decide it would want to go for counselling soon. It needs a good dose of what happening and less of whats feeling.

I had lunch with W, C and M on Wednesday. It was very relaxing, but because we havent discussed the ‘incident’, we were dodging around certain topics and certain people. I thought I heard a definite pause after W mentioned TC’s name. And there was my heads up when M said something about H. Now, it could be that H or it could be a random H, but there was still a jerk of recognition from me.

I have been singing a lot when driving Rogue. Everywhere I go - Nischy’s place, home, shooting and even work! I also need to get Rogue repainted where I scratched her and I need to get her speakers fixed. Its somewhere on my to-do list…

Also on my to-do list is to phone the counselling people and make an appointment. I do hope their offices are somewhere nearby, cos I dont feel like driving into the bundoos in search of solutions to my life problems.

I guess Appy and Amma are trying to talk to me and maybe even listen, but I have no fucking idea how to learn to lowwe myself.

Wagowski and the rest of the NML gang are here in Joburg – they are doing a collaboraton with the Sunday Times to cover the 2010 build-up. I have this mental image of myself sitting like a serene granny, talking about the good old days (last year!) and the fun we had with our Joburg coverage on Creative Commons.

Wagowski said they are going out tonight. I would really like to go with them, but I know Pramod is going to get into a stroppy fit and I dont want to go there.

All hail the bottle of wine that doth keep me company tonight.

I took a 2 hour lunch break to have lunch with Zelda outside Rosie’s office, and to visit the Pick n Pay for a bottle of wine and a bag of onions. I also got my ears pierced. This is the 4th hole. I took a photo with my phone – will try and load it up soon. My ears are red and ouch, but it looks great :)